Post by Lil Weezy on Mar 10, 2009 12:07:08 GMT -5
hey TWA,
I got some (sad) news.
After a lot of thinking yesterday I decided to leave TWA at the end of the season.
It has been almost a year now since my debut in "the old" TWA. When I got my contract from the former GM I felt very honored and privileged to be a part of the fed. I basically rp'ed my ass off with Nuke and D0C to participate and to get involved in sl with other guys from the fed. Everytime I was on the match card I felt happy. Those were definetely different times. Having more than 2 matches a month was great and you had to come up with innovative and good rping to get more matches or to be considered for a title match at all. The titles were most like the reward for a lot of good rping and not to satisfy one's ego.
Well, being "raised" in that spirit, it was no question I would go down with Rowen and the rest of the crew to a regional fed when the old TWA closed its gates and Rowen founded the new TWA. I gladly took the opportunity he gave me to be an VGM. That meant more responsibility and actually an opportunity to really contribute to the fed and give something back for the great moments I had so far with the other guys.
Maybe it was a little naive, but I tried the best I could to keep that "team player" character of the old TWA alive because I thought it was a really good thing. Never would I have dared to question the decisions of the GM and VGMs cause they had more experience and would surely know what to do and what would be best for the fed.
I tried as hard as I could to live up to my expectations as a VGM and later on as Rowen's assistant when he was busy in real life.
But I must realize now that obviously a lot of people think different in behalf of how to lead a fed. How to make matches. How to work with the Championships. Obviously I was way to naive and I realize that I am obviously the wrong person to do it. You'll probably have realized that I became more and more sensitive when "problems" occured and more and more things started to annoy me. I am at a point where I am disappointed in myself that I obviously had the wrong intentions when I started to take control of the Breakdown show. A lot of the people (perhaps not all) just have a different approach towards a lot of aspects of this fed that I can't meet their demands.
I am tired of putting so much work in and having the feeling it is wrong and I am offending someone again.
This is why I let Rowen and D0C know I was going to leave at the end of this season. I didn't just want to say "hey, I'm gone" and leave. I will continue and do my best as VGM until after the PPV. I still feel a great responsibility towards Rowen, D0C, Nuke and some others that really did a tremendous job here (especially germandoom, j.d, mikey, aj, fenrii...). It's really appreciated what all of you did.
But I'm just tired of this and in the end, this is still a game and supposed to be fun, which it hasn't been for me for quite a while now. That's the reason why I have decided to move on. To look for another fed, just be a participant and do some rping.
Since Nuke was the reason I joined the old TWA and I know him for quite a while now I let him know of my plans and he decided to join me. So at the end of the season, Nuke will leave with me. Which makes me happy because I love rping with him.
That's what I wanted to let you know. Just as an explanation. Thanks for reading.
I got some (sad) news.
After a lot of thinking yesterday I decided to leave TWA at the end of the season.
It has been almost a year now since my debut in "the old" TWA. When I got my contract from the former GM I felt very honored and privileged to be a part of the fed. I basically rp'ed my ass off with Nuke and D0C to participate and to get involved in sl with other guys from the fed. Everytime I was on the match card I felt happy. Those were definetely different times. Having more than 2 matches a month was great and you had to come up with innovative and good rping to get more matches or to be considered for a title match at all. The titles were most like the reward for a lot of good rping and not to satisfy one's ego.
Well, being "raised" in that spirit, it was no question I would go down with Rowen and the rest of the crew to a regional fed when the old TWA closed its gates and Rowen founded the new TWA. I gladly took the opportunity he gave me to be an VGM. That meant more responsibility and actually an opportunity to really contribute to the fed and give something back for the great moments I had so far with the other guys.
Maybe it was a little naive, but I tried the best I could to keep that "team player" character of the old TWA alive because I thought it was a really good thing. Never would I have dared to question the decisions of the GM and VGMs cause they had more experience and would surely know what to do and what would be best for the fed.
I tried as hard as I could to live up to my expectations as a VGM and later on as Rowen's assistant when he was busy in real life.
But I must realize now that obviously a lot of people think different in behalf of how to lead a fed. How to make matches. How to work with the Championships. Obviously I was way to naive and I realize that I am obviously the wrong person to do it. You'll probably have realized that I became more and more sensitive when "problems" occured and more and more things started to annoy me. I am at a point where I am disappointed in myself that I obviously had the wrong intentions when I started to take control of the Breakdown show. A lot of the people (perhaps not all) just have a different approach towards a lot of aspects of this fed that I can't meet their demands.
I am tired of putting so much work in and having the feeling it is wrong and I am offending someone again.
This is why I let Rowen and D0C know I was going to leave at the end of this season. I didn't just want to say "hey, I'm gone" and leave. I will continue and do my best as VGM until after the PPV. I still feel a great responsibility towards Rowen, D0C, Nuke and some others that really did a tremendous job here (especially germandoom, j.d, mikey, aj, fenrii...). It's really appreciated what all of you did.
But I'm just tired of this and in the end, this is still a game and supposed to be fun, which it hasn't been for me for quite a while now. That's the reason why I have decided to move on. To look for another fed, just be a participant and do some rping.
Since Nuke was the reason I joined the old TWA and I know him for quite a while now I let him know of my plans and he decided to join me. So at the end of the season, Nuke will leave with me. Which makes me happy because I love rping with him.
That's what I wanted to let you know. Just as an explanation. Thanks for reading.